Metamorphosis

The Times you were  startled by a friend from behind 
while you were walking to the road side store at night..
Scaring the shit out of you still cheering you up as you fall right back on his shoulders..
That essence  of trust that no matter what he will not let you fall..

The Times you got drunk and went home sheepishly..
Only to realize all but you are stupid enough to be happy with the fact that "They Don't Know"
When every single one was aware as you kept stinking the whole night with the weird "Mint With The Alcohol Combination"....

The Times you passed on your answer sheets at the finals..
having the dragon heart to make your buddy get through..
While the head mistress stares at you scribbling on your rough sheet 
to crack the code .

Phew !! ..That was close..

The Times you are at war with your folks..
who are polite enough to say that "You are always Wrong"..
but the moment you face betrayal you unknowingly say "Damn Why Are They Always Right"..

The Times when you push your friend  when he proposes your girl..
and the very next moment you pat on his back saying "You Can Have Her.."

The Times when you just messed all up really bad..
But still you are at peace when you come home and close your eyes 
Only to find yourself on your mother's lap
With your father screaming loud enough to let the neighbours peep through their windows..

The Times when you are told,shouted upon,insulted,laughed at,loved for,pushed back,pulled in..
Somewhere the  realization was just as a mirage..

Now 

While walking in the dark makes me fear Loneliness..
 I check on my drinks even before we get started.
 Don't  recall any friend so close to my heart any more...
 Miss my folks interference ..
 Always constantly pushing each other like some kind of a rat race..

 So long since I closed my stressful eyes and found myself sleeping on her lap..
And If you mess up this time you are on your own ..

This is where I am at ,when I am neither asked nor suggested any options..
There is no one to hold me and grab me into doing what is right .

But I tell you those Times taught me a lot and are still worthy enough to bring a chuckle on my face..
I may not be marvelously winning this race..
I may not be fulfilling  some great expectations..
I am proudly living each day of my life as I cherish those times


For One Fine Day I transformed from being carefree to the one who was willing to say..

 "I Care ....